tertacinkk....

Last two days.. if i was not mistaken. I had lost my uncle forever. 

he had back to our Creator.

He left three sons.. D oldest one is 18 years old.

 followed by 11 and 8 years old. 

They lost their mother 6 years ago. 

n now they have to accept the fact that their father are gone too.

 isn’t that bad?

What touched me the most is they didn’t get perfect  love from both their parents 

while they are getting to know the world.

To whom they are gonna express their feelings.?

 To whom they would refer to if they got problems.?

 to whom they should ask for love?. 

A shoulder  to cry to. A place to  share their sweet n sour experiences. 

Their laugh. Their bored. Their joy. Their pain.?

My tears dropped to the floor when I came across to those things.  Yes they still have their uncles.. aunts.. grandma.. but they will not gonna be the same as our own parents..

I thanked to Allah fer lengthened  my parents age.

I shud be grateful coz they are always there for me. 

Appreciate every moment with them. 

Do not raise your voice to them. Obeys their order. 

We never know when will Allah take them from us. 

I’m afraid that we might not have the opportunity 

to ask fer their forgiveness if we hurts  their feelings. 

Make every second a quality tyme between us and our parents.

SPECIAL DEDICATION.., <3

To abah..

I got something to say to you..,

That you always be the one who can understand me more than anyone else.

U never 4get to remind me how to take a good cre of myself.

How to not make me feel used by anybody,not to let people taking me for granted.

I remember one phrase of your words saying that

 “ do not talk to strangers if they look weird."

 “n do not follow anyone if they ask to”. 

“Do not share your personal informations to strangers in facebook”. 

Your words never fade in my mind as you always keep it repeated. 

“jaga diri” “jaga diri” “jaga diri” at the end of the our phone call conversations if I were anywhere hanging out either alone or with my frens.

Imma say that you had done your responsibilities as a father very well.

U NEVER give a shitt to anything I wanna do.

U understand my desire as a teenage girl.

 thats why u always put your trust in me if I wanna do anything outside.

Coz u know dat your grown up daughter would be able to take care of herself right. 

 Yeaahh I do feel like that too. 

 And in fact Im very confident of that.

 But sumtymes..  I underestimated certain things. People make mistakes.

 N im learning from my very own mistakes.

Fer those mistakes I’ve done, im sorry.plz don’t feel guilty..  its my faults.. 

 u had done your part. then its my part to tke cre of myself. 

 Im gonna take every risk I had created ,alone.

Me, myself will try my best to solve it on my own.

 I should not add some more burden to you.

I love u abah.. I know dat u love me too..

 sometimes you act just like a boyfren would do. 

You call me syg…

 n if we’re texting messages. You’ll say "love u".. hahha.

 Its kinda freak a little bit. Hehe.

with love~~ 

your beloved daughter.

location : bilik(baru balik klinik)
time : 1:06pm
>tenga mencarut kt entry ney smbey menyalak lagu "christina peri-jars of heart"<
*xpadan dgn sakit tekak.pfttt

ak memulakan hari ku aryne dgn p klinik seawal 8.30 pg kowt.

tujuan dy coz ak demam doe aryne. da dua ary da haa.

ak xksah sgt law dmm mkn pnadol nyer pung.

lmbat kebah pown xpa asalkan ak dok rhat kt umah.

tp mslahnya skrg nt petang ak akn betolak p kajang..

umah kwn ak. saja jejalan. ewahhh.

xbez lak an law p jln jaoh2 demam. 

sumpah spoil.

so ak dgn penoh harapan p lah klinik kesihatan kepala batas

minx2 demam ak kebah cpat aryne.

mcm biasa mengabihkan dwet kolej dgn nek bas kolej

even y nak p klinik tadi 9 org jeww..

smpy2 sna ambik no. giliran terus.

hmm..

tunggu punya tunggu pukol 11 lebih baru smpy giliran ak

S.E.N.G.A.L. !!!

lama bhaii.. coz ramai org sgt

roomate ak ad mention mlm sblom ak p klinik.

depa ckp nt ak jmpa MA tu lega terus demam.

ak xbrapa nk pham npa depa ckp mcm tue.

so ak tya la hensem sgt ka MA tue.

depa kta dak.

so, x mnarik prhatian ak nak amek taw dgn lebeyh lanjut. haha

elok2 ak langkah masok bilik rawatan tuh

haaaaaaa.. tudyaaaaaaaaaaa. 

nampak dah si mamat ensem tuh kan. hahak.

dy agak sengaiii sbnaq nya.

dok ejek ckp ak pa tatiawwww.

nseb bek dy hensem. ak xkisah sgt la.

law demam ary2 pown xpa leyh p jmp dy. hahahahahha.

> hampa nak kata ak galak an?<

>taw dah<

haha.

aku peduli apenyerrrrrr,. . . . .  .like i care !!

wahahaha

sampai la waktu p tggu ubat kt farmasi plak.

hang taw depa bagi ubat pa?

ubat batuk dgn PARACETAMOL ja kowttt

ak mcm nk sumpah2 org y bagi ubat tuh trmasok MA ensem tuh

law setakat panadol dy nak bgi ,

kat kolej pown boleh beli belambak.

idong ak y sat2 tersumbat sat2 beraiq neh spa nk tanggung.

ak demam panas bhai. bukan penin kpala ka.

hg bagi panadol kt ak.

setupikkkkk !!!

law klinik kerajaan tuh klinik kerajaaan jgak.

kat mna2 pown sama jah.

bajettttt !! huhhh

meluattttt.

mentang2 la free xkna bayaqq an.

agak2 ar nk bagi panadol ganti ubt demam.herhhhh.

dgn kelaparannya menunggu drp 8.30 pagi smpy pkoy 12.

dpt panadol jah.

ak sanggup xp klaz aryne semata2 utk panadoll....oh...panadol...

tak p dah pasnehh !! tgk ar.

 kbye.nak tidoq.

bebai .

wuhuuuuu. i got anwar hadi heree..

well , hello there world !!! 

*tagline anwar hadi oke. hahak.

oke. let me tell u guys sumtin about anwar hadi.,

well. he is damn cute vlogger.. hahha.

yeahh.. u agree with me right.., wee ~

n i've been following all of his video on youtube.yes i did. huhu

u guys MUST watch dis.. 

imma giving 100000000000 <3 to dis vid.

tadaaaaaa..

sora dy sedap kan3????

n i can see his sincerity in that vid..oh anwar hadi.
klaw nak tgk salah satu video dy.
klik here>  pesta ibadah 

hampa buleh check out dy punya AWESOME vids kat youtube k.

for those y ta kenal dy lagi la..
ad lagi sorang vlogger y awesome mcm anwar hadi is mat luthfi..
check it out --->  judgemental. haha

oke? keeps spreading love yaww..

@#%$*&*pffftt

urmhh . sumpah ak tadak idea nak meqapu pasai ap.

hampa baca ja lah noh papa pown yang mencurah kat pala hotak ak saat neh.

hampa ta suka ? 

dengan segala hormatnya dpersilakan click button "X" kat atas tuh. okeyh peeps ??  great .

oke . b4 ak start memalukan dri ak , bek ak admit siap2 .

saya nurul izzaty bt mohammad zubir x ayu , x sopan , x plastik ,

x pndai masak * except instant noodles fer sure(juz say dat we're having dis in common) HAHA ,

x senonoh in many ways.

(u guys better dont have to know what it is about , or else i bet no one would bear to stay near me.)

kahkahkah >devil laugh<

okay . back to story, ammoih , melencong jaoh aih.

i said to my mom, "mama , yon nak blajaq pakai kain batik.

haha, i dunno what things had influenced me to darely do that.

coz sblom neh ak extremely HaTe pakai kain batik kat rumah.

and i dont even know how to wear dat 'thing'

ak neh jenis kasaq , mmg tak ssuai ah.

my grandma plak punya baek hati hadiahkan ak kain batik terpakai dy,hahah.

amek ja lah dah org bagi kan.

tok ak siap pesan lagi , swoh pkai kt ostel. 

4 GOD SAKE, NO WAY !! haha. 

im telling u it would never ever happened.

i wore kain batik once at home 

and i suddenly felt dat lantai kat rumah ak berkilat sehari. haha.*get what i meant??

dis 2nd incident occured masa kenalan tok ak datang rumah.

thank god that she came ALONE. haha.

at that tyme, there was nobody  at home except me n my grandma.

n in a split second my heart felt like wanna jump out of my body n scream 4 sumbody help 

as soon as my grandma ask me to make a cup of coffee for her friend.

tanpa melengahkan masa teruih buat muka kesian.,

"tokkkk.......... ayaq teh buleyh dak???"

unfortunately , soalan x dilayan . serve u right.

kecik2 tamaw blajaq buat ayaq.

its not dat i know nothing on making drinks,.

its juz COFFEE. yaaa.. saya taw minum jah.tataw bancuh.terokk dakk?? 

rasa mcm nak jerit kat dapuq sowg2. 

law dpt poket doraemon tyme tuh bersyukur sgt2 dah. kerh kerh.

note : law ad laki y reject ak pas neh. taw dah pasepa. hahha

saya gumuk oke , dats it !

yuhhh , so far so good . . .

xda masalah y boleh menggugat keberadaan ak kt kmpp neh..

hepy2 jewp dapat kwn y awesome weyh !! <--- tagline Baki. haha 

oke . kt sini ak jalan banyak kot.

n thinking of dat, ak fikir ak pown patut makan banyak.

coz nak aplikasi kan subjek biologi kat dalam kes ni,

karbohidrat dalam nasik akan di hadam jadi starch then glucose, which is ENERGY~~

yelah.. mana nak taw kan t kang kurang makan xlarat plak kan.,

dah hilang fokus dalam kelas..

but then, perubahan pertama y ak perasaan adalah seluar jeans ak mengecutttt..

 >trima ja lah kenyataan izzaty hg dah gemokk. no doubt . pffft<

ak nekad balek rumah last week ak nak jugak2 timbang berat.

untuk kepastian yang nyata lagi hakiki.haha

guess what.. in a one month time, my weight raised up to 3 kg,.. from 43 to 46 !!!!

wallawey.. ne dah lebeyh kott..

5 bulan ak dok makan tidoq makan tidoq kat ruma awat xnaek2 pown.

tiba2 dengan dok kalut2 kat kolej neh buleyh plak dy naek mendadak.

what in da world is going on badan weyh..

ap dosa ak kat hg .

sampai hati hg buad ak macam neh .

hg nak ak exercise teqa mana lagi .

ta kesian kat ak ka .

ta pasai2 kena diet .

*tapi baguih gak lah..leyh save dwet . wahaha.

what i did in dewan kuliah..tettttt..haha

tah start bila habit mngantuk ak kat dlm klaz tebwak2 smpy kmpp neh

nak djadikan cerita lah kan..

tadi ad kuliah kimia start pkul 2-3 ptg.then 3-4 ad kuliah maths plak.

maybe lteyh kot kan..klaz drpd pagi juz ad gap pkul 1-2 jew nk rhat.*ewahh.mcm2 alasannn hg neh zaty.

etceli ak bwu jew bt 'keja' xbmoral neh ariney.wawawa.

*nak kata baek la kunun kan..padahal xsempat.

cuba kalau sempat, tah2 dah jadi rutin hari2 x..?hahax.

korang nak taw 'keja' ap y ak sebut tuh..
HAHA.. etceli ak malu nk tunjukk..haha
lantakLAHH .. like i care !! *pfftt.

[baca entry neh smpy abeh law nk taw gak] *rawrr ^^"

Hahh !! another one story ak nk share kt cne ..

ampa nk taw dak?? 

tamaww?? well..suka hati..haha.tiada paksaan.

ada la sowg lecturer neh.dy ajaq biology lah kot.*i guest

pasaipa ak kata camtu ampa nk taw.?

pasaiiiii..

dy bleyh p letak nama anak2 dy nama amino acids,..

y tak blajaq bio tuh dlm science ad kan dulu masa muda2 blajaq amino acids tu ap..

ampa jgn dok buat lengai sangat lah kannn..har har.

sini meh ak list antara 20 senarai amino acids y ada..

cysteine, glycine, alanine(alanina), valine(valina), leucine(leucina), proline,

serine(serina), histidine, methionine, isoleucine, asparagine, phenylalanine . =D

euwwww..

pelikk dakk boh kat nma org???

dakk?? 

hg ad masalah jiwa.haha

ak xtiaww la antara suma2 neh dy boh y mna satu kt anak2 dy..

*prasaan ak bcampur baur kat bdak2 tuhh..ksian ada.bangga pown ada.huuu

korang rasa??

"keja" dat i mentioned earlier..walahhh..

^

huduhhhh terokk vavi

*toksah dok kata pa lah kann...

even tdoq sat pown kan..(3 minit)mmg puaihhh ah.seyezzz...

syarat dy tdoq bagi lena ar..ahha
bgn2 uh tobat xgntok dah.HAHA

believe mE.... 

neh aiza tyra ngok ngex dgn azlin toek punya keja..

amek pic ak senyap2.ammoihhh..babab satg haaa..bhaha.

xtvt xberfaedah kt kmpp..HAHA

xtaw kmpp tu ap?? p baca post2 kat bawah.=)
entry kali ne ak nak membebel pasal xtvt masa lapang la konon2 nya..*eww..poyo. hak
kat kmpp neh ad satu tasik aw..
and tasik tu xla besar sgt kan..biasa2 ja..sedang2 gitu.
 agak2 nk release stress kjap kew pas da perah otak study sepanjang ary kan.
boley la lepak2 kat situ..
coz seyez cakap ad sesetengah org lebeyh prefer utk stay kat bilik kan.
but i tell u what..
mmg xsama lah dok kat tempat y tenang camtu daripada juz buat taik mata kat bilik..huhu

xpayah cita pown korang da boleh agak kan ne pic ap.
kat bawah tu tasik. n dorang tgh jalan atas tali.
n juz pegang tali jugak y goyang terokkk..haha
ada berannnnn?????
y ne saje suka2 4 fun jew.
sape2 je boleh naek law korang nak la..huhu

one more tempat fevret ak kat kmpp neh untuk jadi port lepak xkira tengah ary or petang pas abeh klaz or malam.
kat D Pongsu Cafe..
kitorang kat cne panggil ctu Starbucks ..
*bagi la nampak grand ckitt..pe ar.HAHA
ad la western2 ckit..
y best kat ctu dy punya ice blended..white coffee..*fev kwn ak.haha.


etceli ak ad lagi benda nak story..tapi........
malaz ar nak meqapu byk2. lenguh otak kot weyh.
haha. ckit2 dah laa kot..

last but not least.
me as a college student.poyo sat